To all people.. Especially those Form 2 and below..
The Great Boredom will come and find you after PMR!
Gila weh.. I thought it'll be very fun after PMR. But...

I MISS PMR!

I feel like crying larh.. So boring. It's like my life now got no where else to go to..

Please help me...

Take THE GREAT BOREDOM AWAY!!!

T.T

I read of a man who stood to speak
at the funeral of a friend
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
from the beginning to the end.

He noted that first came the date of her birth
and spoke of the following dates with tears,
But he said what mattered most of all
was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all time
that she spent alive on earth
and now only those who love her
know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not, how much we own,
The cars.. The house.. The cash..
what matters is how we live and love
and how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard
Are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left
That can still be rearranged.

My brother, Ivan, gave me this poem and he ask me to read it.. I find it very meaningful. Then it came across me..
The time is near. HE is coming again.
You may not know what I'm talking about. But if you wish to read on, you are most welcomed.

Just last Sunday, I was in church. Pastor David was the one preaching. He opened the sermon with a short video. The contents of the video... Really, really scared me.

There was war, famine, earthquakes, lots and lots of things, unwanted things happening beyond our control. Then the scene changed to a scene of a church. A pastor was preaching about the second coming of Christ. Halfway through the sermon, something really unexpected happen. It was Rapture. And it really made me feel scared because I saw that even in a church, not everyone was raptured.

It made me question myself. Will I go up? Or will I remain on earth to suffer? Did I manage to do what I was suppossed to do here on earth? I realized that the 'dash' I spent wasn't mostly for HIM. It wasn't mostly for serving HIM, for praising HIM, for worshipping HIM. My 'dash', I realized was mostly about me. I am selfish, self-centered. I'm actually not as "holy" or as "humble" as I seem to be.

My 'dash', hasn't ended yet. So is yours. Take time to ponder about what you have done with your 'dash'. Do you feel your 'dash' is mostly wasted in unbeneficial activities? Let's not go too far. Look within ourselves. Are you ready to leave when it's time? Have you fulfill what you are suppose to finish up on earth?

I haven't. So I will try my best to live my life pleasing unto HIM. My 'dash', your 'dash', our 'dash' is surely going to end someday. Think about these.. If you think I'm crapping, go on thinking that way. I do not mind. But if this post really touched your heart, take time to ponder about your past. You still have time to change your life into something really meaningful and beautiful.

Please forgive me if I said something wrong or if my English is too terrible.

With love,
Carmen Ten =)

Hi! I'm in my maternal grandparents' restaurant, sitting at the counter, blogging. It's their 2nd restaurant in Seremban. 1st restaurant is Restoran Seng Loong. 2nd is Restoran Sinna Kawa. *I'm promoting for them* Haha! xD Anyone coming to Seremban must come, k.. If can. Haha!

Okay.. Anyway, I'm gonna share with you my experience in Missionettes's slumber fellowship in Calvaryland. Calvaryland is a home for orphans, old people and women in crisis. It is an NGO under the Assemblies of God.. Aiyaa.. Enough of all this. Don't know how to explain more.

The sleepover was for 2 days 1 night. On the 1st day, everyone assembled at Calvary Church in Damansara Heights. We left late coz many arrived late. The journey there took a long time. Around 2 hours, I guess.. When we reached Calvaryland, we were all so excited. There were only 3 girls in the oldest age group, Seira, Sze Foong and me. We got to choose our own rooms. We chose the room at the back. It was so cosy.. =)

Then we went straight to work. We were separated into 3 groups. I'm not sure what the small kids did. But we got to paint the children's room. Yippee! It's so fun! We painted the room with clouds, rainbow, balloons, kite... Woohoo! You should have seen the room. It's so nice. Teacher Jessica painted the rainbow. Her painting was soo nice. =) Two orphan girls are going to be staying in that room at the end of this week.

Seira and I woke up at 5.30 the next morning. We planned to jog but then... It was so dark so we watched the stars instead. xD Haha! Then we went back into the house. And I slept, again. *Lazy marh..* Then woke up 1 hour later and went out again. Some of the kids were outside and guessed what I saw... Two turkeys DANCING! Haha! They were dancing tango. Haha! So funny... But suddenly they fought. They were bitting each others.. Err.. 'the long thing dangling from their beaks'. Dunno what it's called. At first all of us though they were kissing.. xD

We did many fun things.. Finally, we had treasure hunt and played at the beach. My group won the treasure hunt. But lost at the telematch. T.T Unfair lorh.. My team members all also small kids... T.T Then Teacher Angeline say "Ok. The losers are Team 1. You can throw the water balloons at them". Everyone came and attacked me. T.T And those are not water balloons. They are those thick rubber balloons! My badan all sakit.. T.T

When we wanted to go back, we went to the public toilet to wash our feet coz so sandy. But this darn Malay! *I'm not being racist* But this Malay guy who tengah puasa, charge us for using HIS water. Bodoh! He even scold Teacher Dai Koon when the small kids used HIS water. Bodoh! If so selfish, don't buka toilet there larh! Not even HIS water.. Luckily, I didn't complain to the whatever big guy in authority.. So.. We elder girls, didn't wanna give him business *which he didn't deserve* walked away.

Then we went home.. Seira and her sister and me and my sister went home in the same car with Teacher Cindy and her daughter, Olivia. We went straight back to Cheras. And in the car, we talked a lot of funny things.. The most funniest was when Sheena (Seira's sister) asked me, "Would you rather marry an elephant or eat a monkey with a lizard inside?". So I said, "I would rather marry an elephant". And everyone laughed.. I was just being logic.. If marry elephant, the elephant won't know a thing. And can say I was just joking. But if eat monkey then cirit-birit die lagi tak berbaloi..

I'm kindda bored lately.. So forgive me if my post is boring. Till next time.
Bye!

LOVE is not love.
What am I talking about?
Facts? Nope.
Crap? NO.
Then what?
Feelings..

When you finally grow up... 'Growing up' to me doesn't mean the physical growth. I'm talking about the mental and emotional growth. When your mental and emotional aspect of you finally reach maturity, you'll come to realize that LOVE doesn't mean those crappy 'I love you's' that are expressed by "lovers" (in this adolescent stage "love" may mean something.. But hardly the lasting kind unless you realize LOVE)

LOVE cannot be simply said or expressed. It is sort of something sacred. And when you don't really mean it when you say you love someone, it can really hurt the other person. LOVE can mean a hundred and one things. Love God, parents, siblings, friends...

LOVE means
"I care".
"I'm willing to sacrifice".
"I will go through anything with you".
And that really means ANYTHING and EVERYTHING.

It is not.. "I CARE". But when no more feelings, "So what?! I don't love you"
It is Not "I'M WILLING TO SACRIFICE" only certain things arh...
And certainly NOT "I WILL GO THROUGH ANYTHING WITH YOU". But when hardships come, "Sorry.. I can't take it anymore. I'm gonna have to leave you alone. Sorry."

LOVE is patient and kind.
LOVE is not jealous, it does not brag, and it is not proud.
LOVE is not rude, is not selfish, and does not become angry easily.
LOVE does not remember wrongs done against it.
LOVE is not happy with evil, but is happy with the truth.
LOVE patiently accepts all things. It always trusts, always hopes, and always continues strong.
LOVE never ends.

That is LOVE...

It's been a very, very, very long time again. (Me posting blog I mean) I know this is true because many, many people (Especially JOHN Cheok and CHEAH Zhi Ming) are complaining about me not posting stuffs on my blog. So I'm back to my blogging world.

Since I've been away for a very "long" time, I assume that most people would have already forgotten me (Sad case). I shall begin with a little introduction. Hi! I'm Carmen Ten Kar Man. Carmen for short. I'm 15 this year. My birthday is on the 15th of March 199.. It's ok. Let me get straight to the point.

Me! Me! Me! What a selfish title. *Haha!* Can say a little perasan. =D I have never in my life been very good at choosing titles. But what I'm gonna say has very little to do with me. Aiyaa.. Malaysian peps also not that good in choosing titles wan larh.. When doing the dunno what show about Aliff and Suki in the National Service (NS) they also just simply call the show 'Project NS' larh.. So just ignore the title above.

Hmm.. Sejarah. Why do we have to study Sejarah in school? As the government says, untuk memupuk semangat cinta akan negara (I really don't know how to translate that sentence). The government as normal, since Merdeka until now has only been thinking of 'The government'. Eventhough they claim to be thinking of the Rakyat (Us), I don't believe it sometimes. They are changing the teaching of maths and science back to Bahasa Malaysia. What a pity.. I wonder those who plan to study abroad, how are they gonna cope communicating with the international students? Imagine if those people are roomies with lets say an American hottie or dude and then suddenly they burst out in the room "Wut the heck happened to this hardware?!" The Malaysian must be thinking "Ape hardware-hardware nie? Barang keras ke?" Well, I may not get the answer in a thousand years but that's for you to ponder on. Anyway, I feel it's useless thinking and arguing with the government because it's a waste of time. Must always remember to keep my chill.. Must not lose temper to government (In my case, government worker a.k.a my class teacher) again. Make me loose my coolness (Happy) and not to mention hotness (Angry) only.. *You all must be simply thinking when I say Coolness and Hotness. Haha!*

Hey do you know M.U is having a football match with Malaysia this evening at the Bukit Jalil stadium?! *Screams* Ohmigosh! There's Ferdinand, Tevez, Park Ji Sung (some Korean dude) and 8 more... And in Malaysia there's err.. Umm.. Uhh... Ehh... Erm.. I have no idea. Maybe some Abu bin Mamat, Chong, or even unknown Raju. Sorry larh bro.. Promote Malaysia sikit ma.. why so "anonymous" wan.. Anyways, I'm an Arsenal fan! Whoo!! Go Arsenal, GO! and i don't quite like M.U. and Malaysia is.... Un-describe-able. Support Malaysia people! Just give them support. Whether they will let us down or not, that's their problem. But Malaysia Boleh! *Haha!* Why larh i suddenly so 'Malaysian'. Gila kot.. Nevermind. Malaysian team, ole those M.U peps. No matter hot or not. *I don't think there are hot guys in M.U* Haha! Tapau M.U kau-kau.. Haha! Wut the...

K.. K.. Football. Speaking of football, my kaki "gatal" ddi. I lurve football. Weird huh.. I wanna play football larh. I wish one day Miss Yap (my P.E teacher) will be absent then can play football with the guys. Haha!

Oh yea one more thing, Mutiaran's (SMK Seri Mutiara students) please vote for me 'The One and Only' Carmen Ten in the E.Y.E singing competition. Please. I really really wanna make it to the finals. Thanks so much! *winks*

Thats all for now. This post is out of random-ness so it's a little cacat-ed. Bye!

I'm sorry again. I've been very very super duper ubber buuuzzzzzzY! What?! I don't look like i'm busy?! I have so many things to handle with. School, exams, drama (Teacher's Day), piano classes, etc..
Hmm.. Let me start one by one..
*if you wish to leave now, you're excused*
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Hmm.. Boasting time! I've got a DISTINCTION!! For? My first ever Grade 2 piano theory test. Haha! 97 weh! Ok larh.. I know you have 100. So? Who cares? This is ME blog. Not yours. Brag at your own blog.. *Just kidding*

Well, our school is celebrating Teacher's day on the 29th. Which means this Friday!! Ohmigosh! So fast! I'm soo nervous.. Coz Me (Carmen Ten), Mabel Goo, Seira Joy, Seet Zi Yean, Bryan Lee, Wei Jian, Gan Yang, Yee Khai a.k.a Kyle, Santosh, Samuel Wong, Daniel Mak and Ivan Ten (my bro) will be doing a drama-sort of musical (acting, singing, dancing). Hope we are all prepared. Make sure you all come this Friday okay.. Sure BEST punye.. Haha!

EXAM!!! Whoaa!! Today last day. WOOHOO!! I'm so happy.. So very happy.. Haha! Ok. Let not me get carried away.. *What was I saying?* Anyway..

Bahasa Malaysia (paper 1): Ok larh.. Can 'tembak' a bit. Hope good results larh..

Bahasa Malaysia (paper 2): Whoa! Not enough time. I chose to write a story for karangan again. I think it's a kind of funny story. i especially like the part where I wrote "Oh Tuhanku!" Haha! But the ending kindda dead and lame coz not enough time.

English (paper 1): Fuyooh! Crazy! Normally 1st page and 2nd page questions are easy and at the back ok-ok. But this time.. 1st and 2nd page so darn-ing confusing. The answers like so close..

English (paper 2): Again no time. *I think arh.. people like me who talk (write) too much always not enough time. My novel part think too much of using nice words until waste time. Other than that, all okaay.. I guess..

Maths (paper 1 n 2): Fusheh.. *What is fusheh? One of the weird Malaysian 'whoah' expressions* Giler teruk! I tell you.. sure fail wan larh.. If never, it's a miracle. Paper 1 can use calculator also still no time. Paper 2! No need to talk already larh.. Simply guess and do only.. Haih..

Science (paper 1 n 2): I'm trying to save space here. so yea.. Paper 1 saved me. I got 37/40. just got the results today.. paper 2? Dunno larh. i myself also not sure.

Sejarah n Geografi: Simply do.. Also waiting for miracle.

K.H : Another crap! Dunno which Bodoh person go tell Pn. Chong that simpan Kira coming out. That lady don't know how to teach us accounts don't teach larh. Go to her (Pn. Chong) class like never go to class only. Don't know what she talking about. Only Kat Mei Ling listens and understands.. *same type with Pn. Chong I guess..* Haha! Anyway the "smart freak" here =Me.. I don't believe Simpan Kira for Form 3 coming out. So I didn't study. I only studied for Form 2. An guess what? I was right all the while. 1 form 3 Simpan Kira thing also never come out.. Bodoh larh.. Thank God didn't study. If not waste my time.

Seni: Kindda easy for the questions part. But the drawing part.. aiyoo.. I'm not drawing, painting gifted. Though Ooi Poh Yee said my drawing was cute. Hehe.. *Poh Yee, Thank You*

Sivik n Moral: Ok-ok larh.. finish quite fast. Got time to sleep but wasted the time coz I sit near the window and kebetulannya that "fella" keep appearing so I keep looking and tak sempat tidur.. haih.. wasted.

P.J.K : Most fun. Everywhere got people cheat. Even me. Haha! Eh... i only ask 1 question k.. N after i got the answer I didn't change my previous answer. See! So good! *Perasan* I gave a few answers though.. Funny larh.. One time everyone was like "Shh.. Shh... Shhh..." Then Ysabelle cannot tahan she say "Eh you all wanna kencing go toilet la". Something like that (keep in mind that it's the middle of exam) So funny larh..

I hate osting blogs after long time "disappearing". So many things to write.. Hand very tired already.. That's all for now i guess.
Til then..
With love,
Carmen ;-)

Ever tried thinking suddenly about the past? Especially about times being with someone dear to you? Recently, I have. I confess, it's a lot of times. I try hard to control, to stop myself to think. But it all seems very hard to me. I've been seeing a lot of him lately. So if you tell me to stop thinking, it's difficult.

Wonder who it is? I'll never reveal it. Not even to those close to me. So, there's no point asking.

The times we spent together, though it is very short, the relationship has been very long. Sometimes I wonder.. Why didn't we hold on to this relatinship? It could be a very sweet one.. But I guess it is all for the better. He has met someone better. Or is it just what I think? I'm not sure. But I hope all has been well for him.

*I hope life has been great for you. I've been praying for you lately. I'm always here if you need me*

No.. It's not something that happened to me recently.. It's been a very long time already.. My longest relationship. I tend to think a lot about it.. I don't know why.. It's just me. Well, is it normal? I myself don't really know. Should I let go of it? Hmmm.. Maybe I should. Life goes on no matter how much you are unwilling to let go of the past. Right? Haha! That's life. What more can you expect out of it?

There are many ups and downs in life. That's normal. It's just that certain people go through hard times more than some of the same age. Always remember.. Our GOD is an awesome GOD. :-)

Ush.. Ush.. Must forget.. But must treasure. I can't deny that we're starting to talk again. That's good right? We can't like, ignore each other forever. We're still friends and I'm glad that we are. It's better this way, i guess. For the both of us. Even if it's just for him.. I don't mind.

Don't worry.. I'm okay..

Just..

REFLECTING.. :-)

REFLECTING ON THE PAST... ;-)